It’s been a while since I blogged here. There’s no specific reason for that, other than the fact that I don’t get a lot of readers here. That’s probably my fault for not blogging often enough, not being interesting enough, not being famous or controversial etc. It’s a vicious circle; don’t blog because not many stop by and read, but folks don’t stop by because there’s no new blogs. Chicken and egg. I do often think, “oh I should really do a blog,” but then struggle to think what to blog about. It’s as if I’ve lost some enthusiasm for it over the past months. I’ve lost enthusiasm for quite a lot lately, not just blogging. Maybe it’s the time of year, or my age, or both.
I’ve had some minor but irritating health issues, which are still being a nuisance today and which have sapped my zest a bit. I have another cat who is very high maintenance in all sorts of ways and he takes a lot of my mental energy. I’ve had a period of writer’s block too, which has lasted quite a while and although I’ve made a conscious effort not to worry about it, it’s been niggling at the back of my mind. At least this last problem now seems to have passed, as I’m once again thundering away at the keys, writing volume five in my Sinclair V-Logs series. One bit of good news amongst the grey fog of daily drudge.
I had a conversation with someone earlier today, about the afterlife and what we think might happen ‘over there.’ I decided some time ago, as a firm believer in reincarnation, that I am fully committed to never coming back again to live another life. This past fifty five years has put me right off ever doing this again, so I shall be fighting tooth and nail to avoid the draft again. We cannot know of course, whether coming back is voluntary or compulsory, but I’m taking no chances on that. Then there is the ‘moving on’ thing people talk about. Those who believe in another form of existence after this physical one, and I admit to being one of those believers, refer to this ‘movin on’ a lot.
Scientifically speaking, consciousness is electrical and electro magnetic energy and is measurable in laboratories. Scanners can show thoughts being formed inside the brain and emotions being felt. If you know anything about the conservation of energy theory, you’ll know that energy can never be destroyed. Since our consciousness is energy it must continue in some form once released from the bonds of the physical vessel in which it currently resides. We can only assume that the energy of our consciousness continues in some other dimensional, non physical plane. The transition from this dense, physical existence, to whatever, purely energy based dimension our surviving energies go to, is what is being referred to when people talk about ‘moving on.’
My dilemma is that, as a believer in reincarnation, I cannot know whether agreeing to ‘move on’ to this other plane is taken as agreement to return to another physical life. The risk of letting myself in for something I can totally do without means the only safe option for me is not to ‘move on’ at all but to hang around the fringes of this physical world and find what positive employment for my time as I’m able. When you think about it, there must be a lot of fun to be had messing with the living. Scaring the shit out of people must be a huge laugh; I can just imagine myself stomping along landings, slamming doors, and blowing in folks’ ears.
I’m a fast learner when I’m enjoying what I do, so if I work hard, I could become a much feared poltergeist and have paranormal teams flocking to catch my image on film. I might finally become famous after all. Shame it’s not for my novels though.